For The Record

I'm getting tired of having to put things back together in my life.

In the past year, much of my life has been uprooted, and I've been the one who has held it all together.  Don't get me wrong: I've had support from friends and family, and I'm very grateful for it, but the final determination of sink or swim would be on how well I managed to keep on with life.

For all practical purposes I'm a single Dad.  Granted, the boys' Mom is involved, but I still take the primary role without a shadow of a doubt.  This isn't a problem for me in the normal sense; I absolutely love the time I get to spend with my boys and I crave it when they're not with me.

However, I tend to put myself on the back burner a bit when it comes to other things.  My boys come first, which isn't a problem.  But...  I haven't had a relationship since she left me for her new boyfriend last year.  I guess I've had the odd date or two but nothing substantial in the least.  No worries for her; she had a new boyfriend lined up a week before she moved out.

Each and every time my kids mention their mother, it manages to bring back a little of the pain.  I've learned that it's hard to trust anyone once you've been cheated on (and apparently I'm a multiple qualifier for that distinction)... maybe that's a little bit of why I haven't brought anybody into my life.  Not to mention that the (very) few attempts I've made resulted in failure.  Dammit.

In all reality, I've made a lot of progress towards getting on with life, but sometimes I wonder how much I have left to go and when it will end.  Let me tell you, I'm ready to put this part of my life into the past.

Damn, it's almost been a year already.  Stupid calendar.

Carter is 5

It's hard to believe it's been 5 years since Carter entered my life.  So many things have changed.  He's grown so much, and learned so much.  I've relocated a few times, lost a fiancee, gained a good job, built a company...

I'm looking forward to the next few years, although it just gets harder from here: kindergarten, girls...  there's so much for him to learn and experience.  Nothing beats watching a child learn and grow each day.

I can't imagine my life without him.  Happy birthday Carter!

Green Bay Landing

Get the hell out of my way, Oliver Stone.   

I uploaded a video to Google Video of a landing that Howard made into Austin Straubel on March 26th.  The vid was pretty good quality to start with, and I'm actually impressed with how good it transferred over.

Check Howard's landing out here.  Make sure you're ready to crank the volume at the end... in some ways, Howard's comments are the best part.  They're not exactly the kind of words designed to make a passenger feel better.

I have a ton of pictures from the flight too, but I've been too lazy to get them posted. I was supposed to go flying with Howard again last weekend, but thanks to a miscommunication with my ex-fiancée, I ended up having to bow out.  Grrrr.

Call Facilities!

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OMG!!1! Ponies!

Ah, yes, it's that time of year again.  I always look forward to April 1st to see who has the most fun.

Slashdot goes pink

So does (word is, Howard prefers the new look) 

Cute Overload reacts to Slashdot

Select images from Google Earth reveal the truth about Area 51... it's all about the BBQ

Wireless Extension Cords introduced (anybody got an action shot?)

Google Romance introduced

WebHostingTalk becomes WebHarryPotterTalk and has some interesting announcements about their admins

woot sells MAG KleerDrain Instant Drain Opener

And a personal request of mine:  the USB Memory Stick that plugs directly into your brain for download and archiving.